Rachel Rodriguez  •  Lifestyle

Rachel Rodriguez  •  Lifestyle

The Boat Experience

What do you do when you feel lost and drift out to sea? The boat experience created a path moving forward, I wanted more from life.

The Boat

One day I found myself in a boat by myself. I was drifting out at sea with nowhere to go. I look up and see an island that seemed so far away.

But in the distance, I hear noise, sounds - laughter. It’s my son, my husband they’re on the beach playing and laughing.

I’m confused, what am I doing in this boat all by myself?! 

How long have I been stuck like this? I notice that I haven’t moved because the anchor is dragging on the bottom of the ocean. 

Yet, I feel alone and lost. My arms are so sore but I lost my rows somehow. What happened? Where did they go?

Once was sunny and bright, but now it’s dark out. Where did the time go?

father and son on beach

Realization sets in. I’m alone- out at sea, in a boat. I don’t know how I got here. I don’t know how to get to shore. Every part of my body hurts, however, I can’t explain it. I’m screaming but no one hears me.

Be that as it may, I’m stranded and I start to panic, what do I do? What happened to me? Where am I? I don’t know how long I stayed there feeling sorry for myself, feeling worthless, and utterly depressed. 

I was more than a wreck I was alone on a boat with no oars, no life jacket my head spinning until I look up and see a palm tree. It’s getting closer now. I see my husband playing with my son, he's building a sandcastle and they’re laughing. 

Why am I still in this boat? Why am I so far away from them?! I want to be there on that island with my family. I have to get out of here. 

The Swim

Deciding to go for it, I jump in the water! I swim as fast as I can for as long as I can.

While focusing on my breathing. I taste the salty water, I feel my muscles burn but relax. I feel my feet kick harder and harder. I’m getting stronger and stronger with each stroke that I take. 

Just then, I look up and I see my family again; I’m so close I can hear them now. More determined than ever I give everything I have to feel and see my family because I want to, I will too, it’s my purpose in life. 

I come out of the water eyes more clear, my body more relaxed and my heart is pouring with so much love to give.

 

Sitting down and see my son eating grapes and he says, “ Hi mommy, it’s delicious!” and he says, "mommy open!" Then feeds me one grape. And boy was it delicious! 

My husband responds with laughter that I’ve missed hearing. How long has it been since I heard that I ask myself? ... I don’t know and shake it off. Focusing on his face and smile, I hear him more with his eyes than his words when he says “I love you, babe!”

The Path Forward

I'm in love with my husband more now than ever. I look at them both and I’m so happy!

Beyond filled with love and realize that I’ll never be myself again after all of this. I know that I’m better than I was before, I’m stronger than I’ve ever been, I’m more focused than I’ve been in my life.

This is my journey of building a stronger body, a more focused mind, an appetite through tasting food and finding what I wanted to create most out of my life. I feel everything and I want to feel more, to experience more, to remember so much more.  

However, it shaped who I was forever. Was this a dream?! It felt so real! I'm unsure at this point. I’m certain of one thing, my life is forever changed. Looking back the boat has drifted far out to sea, I can barely see it.

family on beach

It’s gone, and I know the old me stayed in that boat. This boat experience was unlike anything else in my life, and I’ve been through a lot. As a reminder, I need to enjoy life. It all started with seeing my son eat those grapes and being there with my husband supporting me.

Smash Your Grape

Not only did I miss the taste of food, but hearing the crunchiness, the sweetness, the flavors, and the smell.

In light of the situation, I made a promise to myself, NO! - I demanded myself to never go through what I went through ever again. 

I wanted to experience my life on a different level and I needed my purpose - a will to live. That boat experience created a path forward to taste life once again!

~Rachel
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